December already! I am in disbelief that the Christmas and Yule season is coming full speed ahead. Ready or not it's holiday time.
One of the problems I am having as a new blogger is that it is hard to find new and unique things to write about. Posts can of course range from the magical to the practical so I guess I will just continue to muddle through and hope someone can relate or at least smile from my blog. I did know for certain that as I have been sitting at my laptop for the past several days I have been lacking some holiday post inspiration so today I decided why not make it my starting topic. I think too many of us have lost the spirit of this season mostly for the obvious reasons of no time and too much commercialism. If you have or do feel this way do you think it's spiritual? Have we just grown up leaving no time to truly enjoy parties and gift exchanging? Politics of the actual gift giving and receiving? Haha the politics of gifts... wow that can be a post all by itself!
I think my own lack of spirit comes from, brace yourself cause I am going to admit it, lack of funds to be truly festive. Now before you stop reading or hit the 'page back' key I just mean sometimes I get to thinking that if my life had gone differently I might be able to celebrate in any style and with great fun. I cannot afford a fancy tree and expensive decorations. My stockings always come from the dollar store and can never justify the expense of a lot of holiday plants such as a lovely poinsettia that would look divine on my little front porch. I do know that Christmas is not about money and we could have a great yet small and festive holiday with what we can afford or scrape together because honestly to me it's more about family and being together. I love getting presents but I am just as happy if not more so to give those presents. So my dream of bigger and more glittery comes from my heart but I know what's it's really all about so have no fear!
Aside from my missing fortune what else is contributing to my MIA holiday mojo? Hmmm... I live with a scrooge who really is not about listening to carols or watching the Christmas specials. I do these things anyways but not as loudly or necessarily in front of the most comfy room in the house. I have a son who is give me, give me, give me so as long as he gets a few choice treasured items on his wish list he's good. Nobody ever wants a second turkey after Thanksgiving for Xmas dinner so it's almost always ham around here. Oh but by far the best and most noble reason to loose your love of the holidays is having worked more than 7 years in retail, in a mall, on my feet, Christmas eve and the day after! The pushing, the mess, the crowds.... Oh yeah.... who has spirit after that?!
Just writing this all down has actually helped me. Just thinking it over it doesn't seem so bad because I know through the years my holidays have changed. I have had good ones and I certainly have had bad ones. I am most lucky though that I get a new chance every year for a new experience. I can become more and more grim over time looking at only what I don't have or what those around me are lacking or I can try even if in some small way to be grateful for what I have. So what if the biggest tv in the house is not available for my old holiday movies? I still try to watch them and always end up enjoying them in the end. I just need to make my peace with my less than perfect life. Hey and what do you know - the spirit of Christmas is actually still there just buried down deep. Hiding behind a not so pleasant memory it seems!
In Tribute...
In closing it wouldn't be right to not include the fact that during an extermination of my home last week my cat got out. In the 2 years I have had her she has never spent anytime outside. I know she has natural animal instincts but I am worried and mourning her loss. She was my friend, familiar, family member, daughter and companion. While I am certain my spirit was already badly affected by the ups and downs of those have and have not's my kitty will be sorely missed so in tribute I wanted to include a little something for her. If I can overcome this loss right before Christmas than nothing else will ever spoil this joyous time of year for me again. I am trying to go on as I hope she is too wherever she may be. Love you my precious Chanel. Be safe and know I will always love you.
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